Is there A Captain Marvel in Me?

I recently learned that I need to build my confidence to help with my success. My lack of confidence or my extreme low self-esteem has developed into this grotesque monster over time from specific events that have altered my life considerably. I started to truly hide myself when I moved away from my family to a different state and school. So, in middle school, I wore a jacket to hide my growing body. During my 9th grade year, I was called a "waste of space" on a letter signed by my friends and then I was later beaten up by a girl twice my size. My very first relationship was great at first but gradually became toxic. I still held on for more than a decade until he finally left me even to still be pulling my strings many states away. Fear of rejection and the unknown have paralyzed me from taking risks and made me too scared to make the right decisions for me. And as the years passed by, I've noticed that I lost my voice, I've lost me. I don't even know what I want or even have a set plan for my future. I sit in the house wishing I could find the courage and strength to break these chains that have been holding me down for half of my life. I have given away pieces of me by allowing others to make decisions and control me.

I recently started going to therapy and researching ways to gradually build my self-confidence. I began to see one commonality and decided to start with something simple. I immediately realized in my situation that 'it was better said than done'. But still, I took my first step to happiness and success with: LOVE YOURSELF! Simple, right? But not for me. I am learning that loving and taking care of me is the biggest leap of faith I can do to help me heal what I thought was lost. Using my mirror, I must get to know the person right in front of me. I must take the time to learn what are my strengths and weakness so that I can appreciate the bigger the picture of the person staring back at me. I must work on my strengths and minimize my weaknesses to become a driving force towards success. Of course, it will take some time for me to do this one simple thing, but I must keep faith because I know there is Captain Marvel buried deep within me. 

the POWER is within me break through